Sacrificial Abundance

I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Phil 4 : 12 – 13
At this very moment, I am needy and less fortunate. I cried before sleeping on my lunch break and prayed to God that I need Him now, WE need Him! I ask for His blessings, that He’ll sent someone to bless us. Then before I end my prayer, I say to Him : “Lord I don’t deserve any of your riches, but I know that You love me, You love us… Please help us get through this” then I calmed down and fell asleep.
After an hour, I feel calm and contented. I feel my stomach grumbling – I am really starving. I am seeing a lot of food that I cannot buy. My money is not even enough to pay for my fare going home, so I’ll walk. I feel empty. I went to some of my friends to ask for help, but none had helped me. I feel discouraged, yes. And I even think that none of them is a real friend to me.
Then suddenly, I feel guilty. These people has been there for me for a lot of times. Maybe they really can’t help me to save themselves. The last bread I have, I even share it to them. Yes, my stomach is empty but my heart is full.
I maybe less fortunate of this world ‘cos I don’t have money and food. But I have God who is more than those things – what should I be worried for? I am thankful that I Have Him and that I can endure (through Him who gives me strength).
I evaluate my life and maybe this is my fault. I may have had a lot yesterday that wasn’t handled properly that’s why I ended up empty today.
Today, as I read these two passages from Philippians, I can say : I am strong ‘cos Christ is with me. I don’t know what will happen when I got home, I don’t know where to get money for my fare in going to work later, but I know that God has His plans and I know that He works on a perfect timing.
I have been full and empty, sad and happy – I feel more contented thinking that I am loved by  a King.
Friend, if you feel the same way, I don’t know if you’re materially empty, physically or spiritually, but take heed! God will always be there for you. He is only teaching us to be adaptive. Not all of the time we’ll be on top. God lets high people bow down.
Still I thank the Lord for loving me unconditionally. I am weak but He is my strength.