"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways…”
Isaiah 55 : 8
Call me late bloomer when it comes to movies but I’ve just seen ‘Bruce Almighty’ recently. Yes, it may be like 10 years ago and I’m sorry I’m not fond of watching movies. My boyfriend and I saw an ‘all-out-sale-dvds’ and we’ve seen this movie. I may had watched it later but I am very thankful that God lets me see it. These times in my life are tough. Being a mother and an employee and a partner. Everything seems to messed up. Just like what had happened to Bruce, I questioned God and thought that He is ignoring me. Yes, I am  a Christian and yet I am thinking this way. Truth is, life can be so hard sometimes that we tend to give up and blame God for the consequences of our actions.
Recently, my partner and I had a big fight which I thought would end our relationship. I was so tired and I saw him being so dependent on me and not helping at all. I wasn’t able to see his efforts and sacrifices and all I consider is myself. At this point, I told myself that I am so proud and I wanted to shout to everybody, “Hey I am good! Tell me I am good and I am doing all the good things in this world”.
I oversee my partner’s shortcomings but not mine’s.
Like Bruce, I lack confidence that God hears me and is doing anything for me. I never thought that God let things happen for a reason, a purpose. The problem with us is our arrogance, impatience and greediness. We want what we wanted not thinking if it will make or break us. We take things for granted. We ignore God’s efforts. We demand to God and blame Him if things don’t go our way.
People want Me to do everything for them, but what they don't realize is, they have the power. You want to see a miracle, son? Be the miracle.”
Now, how can we be our own miracle? We don’t need to question God or understand how He works. We just need to trust His will and surrender. Stop being a god to your life. Stop deciding for yourself. Stop planning and looking for you own purpose. Seek Him and let Him work unto you.